Thursday, August 30, 2012

Why the moon is rarely blue

 
 
 
 
 
Are people still killing
dying for the things

that men made?
 
I've lost touch
I read too much
write poetry in the shade
 
I've been observing
how gentle the light
is with the darkness
 
Familiar like soulmates
its never a bit awkward
actually its beautiful
 
how they collaborate
they dip their paintbrushes
into a rainbow
 
look at each other
as if their's is a secret
only they know
 
see you in the morning
a kiss as they go

my dear universe manifested

Saturday, August 25, 2012

Departures

 
 
 
I realized some bridges need to be burned so that I can't go back to chasing ghosts that haunt my dreams
This is not how I thought it would go
I thought if I gave you room you would feel free in that freedom understanding love choose we but now its just me realizing thinking knowing Its time for my departure a pivotal moment I keep telling myself not to look back because in some universes this bridge is only in my imagination a hologram created by my longing for how coming back to life feels
I've been combing through it like a crime scene investigation grieving like a funeral looking for someone like you selfishly praying to you wishing you would stop me watching the clock hoping you will break tell me not to go wishing that you would know that I let you go because I know what love is
Now boarding flight 518 to Shanghai with a 4 and 1/2 hour layover freezing as our cold war leads to no more I don't want to go back without you I feel homeless

Thursday, August 23, 2012

He Remembers


She read All You Need
had an intense reaction

decided to see first hand
She was like hmm
not really Jimi Hendrix
more like a cover band
 
Ambition
low self esteem
add in quick decisions
idolizing money
and light skin
hard to stay friends
much less lovers
 
Adoration
frees you
till you see you
reveals character
sometimes
puffs up
 
Ambition wants
better and more
until it has it
then it wants
more and better
 
I think I have
365 letters in me
I don't know
what else to do
but build a house
while I'm waiting
 you won't
stay out of my sleep
So I'm gonna write about it
live without it
until I'm the right man
not just the when
your man is out
at night man

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Versive

Everyday I
invite the world in
by the end
I'm letting it go
There are exceptions
Acceptance
rejections
more things I didn't know
Brilliant
in my awkwardness
breathing in again
my flow
Not pushed
or pulled
but moving
of my own
discord
Somedays
I would give
the world away
for you
to stay and play
Loneliness understood though
alone with the universe
its on reward
sometimes its on curse
when you don't kiss my lips
they are kissed by verse

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Unreachable



Yesterday
Today
both haunt my dreams
Secrets not well hidden
are waterboarding
my inner peace
In my sleep yesterday needs me
Today is conflicted but
goes with her wanting
Yesterday's today has gone home
and says its ok for me to be
there for her while he is gone
or so she says in my dreams
Today's face is in a pillow
looking back at me
with sounds of pleasure
but its not me who pleases
I got 50 woes
nothing I know
can cure them
Responsibility
is an ecosystem
Holograms love me so much
they can't stand
for me to leave them
We wait for each other in silence
speaking only when spoken to
and no one listens to anyone
My mirror reflects nothingness
Everything is nothing
nothing is everything
I'm willing to sacrifice
almost anything
for the only thing
I want

is lost

Thursday, August 2, 2012

7 times in a blue moon

I'm the type of poet
who will risk everything
for the next pleasure
the next muse
I'm a cliche
and so is everyone else
because cliche is
the human condition
I strain
to rise above it
but it feels like
a band
and the further I pull away
the harder it snaps back

Sex is a delicious snack
and if I'm honest
there is no enough
but I know love
is the meal
is my soul's satisfaction
I like Friends With Benefits
but I loved The Notebook

I wonder if you love
as good as you look
and I have to admit
I'm aroused by your books

If I listen to all your secrets
will you make some with me
if I'm a choir boy
or a playboy
my partners never trust me

so I question this idea of monogamy
not because I don't want it
because I'm afraid it doesn't exist
whats projected as the norm
seems to be the twist
the exception to the rule
I'm most definitely a fool
I'm surrounded by and drowning
in my own ignorance
who needs more motivation
to stay in school

Take off your cool
Now that Andre is gone
I want to get to know you too
lets make love to Elevators
ME and U

Get so high
that we never want to
come back down to earth
give birth to future dogmas
collect drachmas
give it all to the greedy
will I always find U
if I stay needy

whats it like to be the benefactor
of me losing my confusions
dancing with The God of all religions
and having trouble with simple decisions
stuttering at derisions
harmlessness my discipline

after we make love again
may I ramble you to sleep
be careful swimming in my thoughts
they're too deep for some
Here comes "The Son"
to rapture my heart
take me back to the start